Sunday, April 8, 2012

A New Leaf


"I could never go gluten-free."

I've heard that a lot lately.  And hearing it from one person repeatedly is one thing, but several people have said that to me over the last two weeks.  So I figure I should listen, since the Universe is obviously trying to tell me something. Perhaps you're thinking, "Why would someone who's been gluten-free for nearly five years need to hear that?"  Well, if you knew me before I adopted a gluten-free lifestyle, it'd probably be clear to you, too.

It's to remind me that I once used that exact same phrase.

It's amusing to me, because I remember how convinced I was that that could never happen.  My argument was the ever popular, "I love bread/pasta/cake/cookies/etc. too much."  Which I did, even though I now know that those 'comfort foods' were wreaking havoc on me physically, mentally, and spiritually.  Even when I saw how much better my quality of life was after moderating my gluten intake, I was still holding on to my old way of life like a childhood security blanket, aware that I had to move on, but scared of the unknown, the uncomfortable, and all the 'what ifs.'

But when I finally let go and left it behind, there is no doubt
that that was the best decision I have ever made.   

And you want to hear something funny?  Nowadays, I hardly eat bread, pasta, cake, or cookies.  And it's not because there aren't great gluten-free options for them at the supermarket or recipes on the interwebs to help me make something scarily close to the gluten-y original.  No, it's because I just don't crave them anymore.

True, it was daunting at first, wondering if it would work, wondering if I had the willpower, wondering what to do with all the aches, pains, ulcers, migraines, hallucinations, rashes and eczema, prescriptions, monthly blood draws, mood swings, and perpetual brain fog of my "old life" that were so dependable and familiar.  But taking that leap of faith and taking the gluten out completely finally showed me what "living" was meant to be.  What it could mean to "feel like myself" and not be afraid of that.  What it could mean to look forward to each day and the days to follow. What it could mean to want to share that life with others.

Never is not a word I use very often, but looking at the first 28 years of my life, I can safely say that "I will never go back."  I am the author of my journey and I choose to move forward with love and light, not only for those around me, but for myself as well.  And if there's anything that I can share with you, it's that you are also an author - what's written on your pages is written by you.


So write beautifully.

4 comments:

  1. Lovely post. It takes great courage to do what you have done and I am so proud of you. Truly inspiring.

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  2. Thank you SO much, Jun! Your comment means a lot to me. :)

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  3. Love this post, Jonathan! Your posts are always so inspiring to me, and I've been trying to find more time to write in my journal lately, so I love that you ended it with the thought of us all being our own authors of our journeys.

    xoxo

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    1. Thank you so much, Iris - You are an inspiration to me as well. :)

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